A lot of factors were involved in my bad start to the year but I didn’t let it get the best of me. 365 days have never gone by so quickly like those of 2018 filled with beautiful moments of self-discovery, self-love, the not so good moments and the really bad ones. All these moments have shaped me into the person I have become? Through this blog post, I would like to take you on a journey of my 2018.
Lessons that have stood out.
Every year comes with its own baggage and 2018 had its fair share of it.
The most painful lesson for me was repeating one of my modules. Failure has the power to paralyse a person if you allow it and this almost happened to me, I found myself in a dark place dealing with dark thoughts while pretending to be okay on the outside. This ordeal has made me more aware of mental health and the importance of dealing with my feelings and do what is necessary to heal oneself instead of letting things bottle up which can result in serious mental health struggles. This series of events made me stronger in the end and the burden became slightly easier to bear, having my brother to talk to. There is no shame in asking for help.
I have learned to turn my failures into an opportunities by using my time more effectively for my studies thereby discovering so much about the module and eventually fell in love with what I’m studying.
Walking away from a one side relationship
In many instances we tend to think we have a perfect relationship till shit happens and you realise it’s best to walk away for your own good and wellbeing. I like giving people second and at times third chances just in case I was wrong and I have been giving the person I was dating chances and even overlooking things they did, not realising that this was hurting me more. I began to question myself and feeling insecure, unhappy in a relationship that was supposed to make me happy. I’m just glad we ended things on a good note because we shared incredible moments together and now we are friends.
I can’t stress the importance of walking away from a toxic relationship, it’s better to be single then to go through that. I know it’s scary for someone people to be alone but there is so much power in finding yourself. Try it for 2019.
Not everyone is your friend and you don’t need a million friends. One or two is more than enough. True friends are always revealed by a situation (check out my blog post I did about friends earlier this year).
2018 awakened my abilities that I wasn’t aware of and reinforced the ones I already knew about. Listening is a fantastic skill of gaining knowledge and I have been doing a lot of listening this year. The centre of each New Year for me is personal growth and self-development. My self-esteem took an amazing boost, I love how I surprise myself sometimes and what I’m capable of doing. Be your own kind of beauty by just being you.
I’m most certainly ending May 2018 on a very different note from how I started it. I’m a transformed individual and now more than ever more focused on living my life on my terms. The saying is true that with age comes wisdom.
Thank you to every single person that was part of my 2018. Y’all were pivotal to my growth. I Love you for loving me when I didn’t love myself and for believing in my abilities when I was not sure.
May 2019 be the year of living your life on your terms and focusing on your personal growth.