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2018 Gratitude

I swear my start to 2018 was one of the most depressing starts of my Adulting life, it was that deep for me.

A lot of factors were involved in my bad start to the year but I didn’t let it get the best of me. 365 days have never gone by so quickly like those of 2018 filled with beautiful moments of self-discovery, self-love, the not so good moments and the really bad ones. All these moments have shaped me into the person I have become? Through this blog post, I would like to take you on a journey of my 2018.

Lessons that have stood out.

Every year comes with its own baggage and 2018 had its fair share of it.

The most painful lesson for me was repeating one of my modules. Failure has the power to paralyse a person if you allow it and this almost happened to me, I found myself in a dark place dealing with dark thoughts while pretending to be okay on the outside. This ordeal has made me more aware of mental health and the importance of dealing with my feelings and do what is necessary to heal oneself instead of letting things bottle up which can result in serious mental health struggles. This series of events made me stronger in the end and the burden became slightly easier to bear, having my brother to talk to. There is no shame in asking for help.

 I have learned to turn my failures into an opportunities  by using my time more effectively for my studies thereby discovering so much about the module and eventually fell  in love with what I’m studying.

Walking away from a one side relationship

In many instances we tend to think we have a perfect relationship till shit happens and you realise it’s best to walk away for your own good and wellbeing. I like giving people second and at times third chances just in case I was wrong and I have been giving the person I was dating chances and even overlooking things they did, not realising that this was hurting me more. I began to question myself and feeling insecure, unhappy in a relationship that was supposed to make me happy. I’m just glad we ended things on a good note because we shared incredible moments together and now we are friends.

I can’t stress the importance of walking away from a toxic relationship, it’s better to be single then to go through that. I know it’s scary for someone people to be alone but there is so much power in finding yourself. Try it for 2019.

Not everyone is your friend and you don’t need a million friends. One or two is more than enough. True friends are always revealed by a situation (check out my blog post I did about friends earlier this year).

2018 awakened my abilities that I wasn’t aware of and reinforced the ones I already knew about. Listening is a fantastic skill of gaining knowledge and I have been doing a lot of listening this year. The centre of each New Year for me is personal growth and self-development. My self-esteem took an amazing boost, I love how I surprise myself sometimes and what I’m capable of doing. Be your own kind of beauty by just being you.

I’m most certainly ending May 2018 on a very different note from how I started it. I’m a transformed individual and now more than ever more focused on living my life on my terms. The saying is true that with age comes wisdom. 

Thank you to every single person that was part of my 2018. Y’all were pivotal to my growth. I Love you for loving me when I didn’t love myself and for believing in my abilities when I was not sure.

May 2019 be the year of living your life on your terms and focusing on your personal growth.

My WeeK

My First

First time I’m reflecting on my week for the year 2018 and I must say I really have missed doing this it’s like therapy for me.

Let’s get straight into…

My feelings for you (bae)


I must confess I have missed you more then I thought I would, not seeing or feeling your lips have been like torture to me but a part of me is busy giving up on us. Sometimes you just know when to walk away from a situation before it causes more  damage to you. Maybe I’m just over thinking things and this is how relationship go sometimes but a part of me is telling me something else.



One of my happy places makes me feel like Olivia Pope way I fixed the shit out of it lol watching scandal payed of after all. We had this Nedbank Kapana cook off on Friday and my team was not ready at all, it was crazy I was panicking but my team was like   “we got this let’s just have fun”. We walked away with the 3rd prize I must admit it was exciting. Also love the way I ended the week on a high note with a great interview I had with Helena who was the drive personality on my show for the week,  her energy gave me live.

My superhero for the week

My Mom, this woman keeps me grounded. When I find myself in a situation I always ask myself what would my mom do. I’m so thankful to have an amazing mother like you. You give me my strength not to give up and to always have  a kind heart.

Lessons learned

To live in the moment.

To be thankful for what I have.

Not to be afraid to try out new things.

Not to trust people completely.

To be careful of people.




Growth and development and implementation.

Learning not to let my emotions control my reponses.

Owning next week, every single day is a blessing and a chance for rebirth.


My Peaceful Week

My Peaceful Week

Another reflects on a week that has passed. This was one of my most peaceful Weeks I had which is so weird for me. This week also marked our term break for College.

Let me break it down..

I have been in totally control of my feelings this week, that of people I like and used to liked.

People have a way of showing their feelings towards you without saying a word, it’s true the eyes are the windows of a person’s soul and I have seen yours this week.


I don’t feel like touching on work this week, no weird story to share unfortunately just my colleagues being crazy fun individuals.


This week I’m including College because we are officially on break and this is one really long. It was a fantastic first term passed all of my classes and got 3rd position all over in class for this term but wanted first place. Just happy my friend is number 1 for this term, friendship goals.
Will miss all of my life loving class mates, hope you guys will make crazy memories this break and have some amazing sex please.

Crush of the week

Another week is passing by and I’m still crush on you idiot, laughing with you is the second best part of my day. Lastly thanks for keeping it real KN.

Superhero of the week

The most unexpected person is my food superhero *laugh* since last week I have be craving cake and koeksister 😊. So I ask my Co host to buy me a slice of cake and he say no however to my surprise he was waiting for me with cake at work guys I swear this single handily made my weekend. A dark,soft chocolate cake slice, with sweet jam in the inside and with every bite came an orgasm in my mouth leaving me wanting more and more, the power of cake. All thanks to my food superhero Kotjii.

Lessons learned

Not to be afraid to give into my feelings,  you only live once.
The importance of being thankful for the  people in my live.
Liking someone is okay, as long as it doesn’t hurt you in the process or makes you unhappy in any way.
Only move on when you are ready even if the other person has moved on already because your feelings are not the same and you don’t share the same journey. Wait till you are ready then close it off with your own time.


Growth is always on the agenda every week.

Being happy without a reason.

You have 7 days, you can spend them unhappy, complaining about life or you can take those days and turn them into days of gratitude.

Learn to celebrate your life every day because it’s a gift and the best way to spend a gift is by enjoying it.