Let’s just say we both knew it was over but not brave enough to acknowledge it or that’s how I felt like.
It’s so crazy almost around about this time last year we were getting together, you were not sure if you were ready for a relationship and I was scared to get hurt but still we made it work for 11 months which were by far the best. You made loving you so much fun and easy. The weird moments I have experienced was your stupid dance moves that got me laughing藍 more than I was supposed to, the silly things you would do to make me laugh I swear that was your full-time job to get a smile on my face. I still remember our first kiss in the studio my favourite place, I was a little shy but really wanted to feel your lips against mine, to have some part of you and it was a beautiful nervous moment.
That one time we escaped on walk around the Warehouse just for you to get me alone, I remember how our lips met and our tongues took over , a little moan escaped my mouth which made you pull me close while making my mouth your play ground. In that moment it was just us and you took that moment to show me your six-pack (between us not sure if it really was a six or 4 ) I ran my cold hands down your warm six pack with every part of me wanting you.
The pick ups
How can I forget that, the way you would pick me up in your arms just to show how strong you are but I think I love your hugs way more, being in your arms were my favourite place, feeling your heart beat against mine and knowing a kiss would follow soon like a beat of a song waiting on the chorus, softly touching my lips while our tongues fight for domination in each others mouth I would always let you win.
Date night ( we made it a thing)
Starts with us fighting over what to do or what movie to watch. I use to look forward to our date nights whether we were going out or not, just the fact that I was going to spend time with you and seeing your silly face that smile of yours would take me away from whatever I was going through. And the way you wanted to make me fat always feeding me but you still need to work on your cooking, as that one time you put too much salt in the food lol that’s what I’m going to miss.
Our awkward fights and I believe you do have a romantic side to you after all the sweet text messages, you had your moments.
The break up
We had the weirdest break I guess that’s what made us different. Breaking up on our anniversary. I could see it in your eyes when I brought the topic up and how fast you said we should just go our separate ways. To be honest a part of me wanted to grab you but I could see something has changed.
Thank you for loving me in your own special weird way. I just wanted to share the good memories we had that’s how I want to remember you.
You’ll always have a special place in my heart. I only realised too late that I loved you more than I knew. J I