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Our Story Part 2

Took  me a year to be able to write about you. Hopefully you will enjoy part 2 in the series of “Our story”. My crazy, wild experience with my first crush in the big city.

Meeting you for the first time was one of those nervous moments but you made it so easy with that warmth smile of yours and those breathtaking chocolate brown eyes of yours made me feel at peace.

For some crazy reason I had no words to say, my mouth was more dry than the Fish River in that moment I realise I didn’t need to say anything to break the silence.
Smile.. you cooked for me while trying to know me better, loved the way you worked around my shyness to get me to be comfortable with you.

That was the day I knew I liked you more than I should. Your chest soon became my favourite place and your arms were my new home, where I felt safe. Your lips were my oxygen.

Talking to you was the best part of my day, something I was looking forward to and you never disappointed me with your words.

I remember that day I wasn’t feeling myself and I texted you to come and give me a hug and not long there you were standing with your arms open. Lol I remember you asking me “what’s wrong ? Did my dog die or something” . Your mad face was just the one. Crazy but my punishment for the hug was me cooking for you which I enjoyed doing.

The kiss
Your lips melted into mine for that moment in time I felt like I was on cloud 9. You took your time with every kiss as our tongues met in our mouths dancing as my tongue twisted around yours.
That kiss rise the roof, as you worked my mouth like it was never worked before.

You were mine but I was not yours.

To be continued….

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Who Am I

All these thoughts are running through my mind,  so many questions, I’m scared to be myself or I’m scared of what people will say when I’m myself however I’m not sure when I’m myself.

Guess I have been fooling myself all this time, knowing that there is a part of me that no body knows about including myself.

The process is so hard, people make it seems so easy using the words find yourself, know yourself, it’s so freaking crazy.

There is this part of me that I have been keeping to myself,  because I have always believed that I don’t want to add my problems to people even if it’s my own family. I would rather hear their problems and try to help them.

I wish I knew what it means to be true to yourself or maybe I just scared to be myself around people.  The world is not ready to meet the person I’m  meant to be. For now I’m just going to be Joe.

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My Grade 10 Experience

Not so long still remember the day I got my results. It was a Wednesday me and my friends took my mom to the train station cause she was travelling to Karasburg, on our way back we went to check our results at the regional office and I was super nervous. I walked over to my school’s name and check for my name no # it must be a mistake I can’t fail I  looked closer it was just a 22 couldn’t move for a moment till my friends started screaming yes, yes! It’s a pass. They looked at me and said stop playing you pass right?  I told them no they walked over to make sure. The walk home was weiri quiet .

I got home started cleaning the house like nothing is wrong then it hit me when I got a text from my cousin did you pass? Starting breaking down crying uncontrollable I think it was for about a good 30mins of crying because I did study hard but clearly not hard enough. What hurt more was the ” it’s going to be okay” ” it’s not the end of the world” but it was my end of the world.

Come January was not sure what to do first I wanted a remark but then a good friend just told me to go to Namcol. I was so confused but I did go to Namcol and to be honest that was the best year of my life not the easiest by any means.

The next year I was back at school grade 11 even got a B in history lol.

I’m sharing my story with you just to show you that failure doesn’t define you and you shouldn’t allow it to define who you will become in life. Cry if you have to get it out of your system. I know the pain it’s not easy but it gets better and better.

Congratulations to those who passed.

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My Naked Weekend

This was one of those unplanned moments that just fell into place perfect.

Babe’s eagerness to please me was simply beautiful, as we got some ingredients for dinner I could see how nervously babe was happy.

Back home the cooking started with some new rules for the night from Babe ” tonight we are watching movies in a different way and you are not allowed to fight me on this one” babe said,  this got me really nervous to find out what rules are these and babe continues with the rules for the night “We will watch the movies naked completely naked no clothes on” for a moment there I couldn’t believe what babe just said turning to get my head around it because I was never naked in front of another person but I agreed to the rules of the buildings night which lit babe’s face up like a Christmas tree.

Music, the sound of me chopping up the onions, wine being poured in the glass and our lips making the first connection of the night felt like with every kiss I wanted more.

My favourite place in world is babe’s arms, I  refer to it as my Paris, my happy place.

As we sit down on opposite side to watch the first movie while have dinner. Babe ” you are way too far from me” just those words made me realise I was with the right person, in the right moment.

We both still fully dress, till babe jumps up in front of me with a naughty smile started to remove his clothes starting with the t-shirt and ending with the hot pants. I swear I couldn’t focus on the movie anymore with this beautiful wonder of nature standing completely up  naked sharing with me the most intimate part and in the process breaking down the walls I have built one brick at a time.

Coming to sit next to me saying no pressure only do it if you feel comfortable. Thinking myself should I do this or no? And I already knew the answer to the question a clean yes. As I start to undressed myself nervously…smiling but deep down knowing that this is what I want.

Couldn’t believe I was sitting naked, butt naked and loving every moment of it with my person. My eyes were more on babe’s body than the movie. As I travelled babe’s body with my eyes, visiting every amazing part of it not wanting to miss out on a single part till I made my final stop my favourite part of the body, lips. I softly pressed my lips on babe’s lips as I was awaiting permission to enter babe’s mouth, our tongues meet and it was fireworks in our mouths. That kiss felt like a movie strong, powerful yet passionately soft with an element of laughter.

Sitting completely naked in each others hands, being at our most vulnerable, ready to seeing each other scars and loving how imperfect we are.

Weirdly enough that was one of my best sex free experience.

Getting lost in each others body but not filled with lust for it.

That night our bodies united in to one without sex being involved.

Love is a beautiful ride with ups and downs accompanied by amazing twist and turns. Make sure your riding mate is ready and prepared for the journey.

PS love every part of your amazing body. It’s the perfect gift for my eyes.

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The Ingredients For A Healthy Relational

A week

A month

6 months

A year

Maybe just maybe a lifetime.

But the truth is only you can determine how long it will last because this is an emotional investment you are making with another person. Possibly one of the biggest ones you can make because nothing hurts more like a broken heart.

Questions many of us ask before entering a new relationship. How long before my heart gets broken? How many happiness moments we will shared before we start fighting about silly things? How sure are we that this is the right person for us or are we just gambling with our hearts in the hopes that it be just end up being the right person because life is a game after all.

Here are a couple of factors that can determine how long your relationship will last. The first one being

Communication

Communication, communication I can’t stress this enough because this is how you strength your bond with your person and I’m not referring to the good morning text or the good night text but sharing something really personal which will also build trust within the relationship, especially if you are really serious about the relationship. There is nothing a like little lie to break up what you are trying to build with your person. There should be a no secret rule in your relationship this will bring you closer together.

This may be hard in the start believe me it’s not as easy as I’m writing it now.

So talk more about your goals, your dreams to show the person  that there is a place for them in your life just not only  in the present moment but also in the near future.

The sex

Let’s be honest that sex is one of the most important factor of any relationship because with sex your connection gets deeper with your person. You are sharing a secret part of your body with another person so deep that your souls are connected in the process. Happy Couples have great sex and not boring funless sex which leads to the person wanting to experiment outside of relationship. One thing to never do is to be shy in the bedroom, I know it may be hard but it’s not impossible to do. Try role playing once in a while to keep the fire alive.

The family and friends factor

Now this is the one that can make or break your relationship depending how much influence you allow them to have. It’s okay for your family and friends advice you on the person but don’t allow it to cloud your judgement or for you to make a decision based on their opinion. No relationship comes without baggage just like no person comes without a past. Everyone has the ability to change for better, it just takes the right person to do that sometimes. So learn to separate your relation from each other, if they go well together even better for you. One last thing to keep in mind is that your friends and family don’t have to be best friends with your person but they just have to be civilize towards one another.

The money factor

Let’s me honest this has cause many relationships to end on bitter note. When you are in a relationship with someone it’s both your responsibility to treat each other. If you are really serious about the future of your relationship you should try to work on this already slowly. As much as you want to spend on the person try to save together as a couple for a treat.

The love factor

When love is true and real happiness is the order of the day. Nothing kills you more than being in a loveless relationship,  forcing feelings onto someone that doesn’t want to put in the same amount of work and time into the relationship. This is the kind of stress and pain you don’t want or need in your life. We all deserve to experience true love in our life so don’t rob yourself of this amazing experience by being in a wrong relationship. When love is there it just makes things a lot easier.

Without love there is no relationship.

Last factor being “FUN”

This is so important!!! Fun moments are needed in any relationship so don’t deny yourself this part of the relationship. Play with each other because laughter is one of the best medicine,  like the saying goes “make them laugh and they are yours already”.

Those just some of the ingredients you need for a healthy long strong and loving relationship.

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The art of being grateful

An experienced I had this past weekend made me question how ungrateful we are sometimes and in the process we take for granted the things and people we have in our lives not knowing that there is someone wishing they had what you have.
Now what is ungrateful according to dictionary.com ungrateful is being
“unappreciative; not displaying gratitude; not giving due return or recompense for benefits conferred: ungrateful heirs. 2. unpleasant; distasteful; repellent: an ungrateful task.”
Now we have a understanding of what it means to be ungrateful, just in case you didn’t know the true meaning of it.
From a very young age I was always taught to be grateful and thankful for what I have because there is someone who doesn’t have what you have and most importantly to share the little I have to bring joy to someone else.  These some of the lessons I learned from my grandmother, mother and uncle.
Being kind and thankful doesn’t take anything away from you instead it adds so much joy and blessings to your life.
We always take the people we love for granted, not knowing sooner or later their time with us will be cut short. Don’t wait for someone you love to be sick on their death bed or to stand in front of their open grave for you to realize how much you love this person and how grateful  you are to have them in of your life.
There is no greater theft them losing someone you love that you never truly appreciated. Don’t let your attitude of ungratefulness stop you from celebrating someone you love while they are still live.
Let’s stop waiting for special days to celebrate people in our life and it let become a everyday thing.
There are kids who wish they had one more moment with their parents, just to show them how grateful they are because the world is a cold place. I’m sure you would much rather visit your parents at home then at the graveyard with tears in your eyes.
It takes you less than 5 minutes out of your busy schedule to just call someone to tell them how grateful you are to have them in your life and sometimes simple sms would do before you going drinking because none of us are promised tomorrow.
Stop waiting for the right time, mood or for their birthday to show appreciation to someone you love.
Don’t let your pride robbery you of happy memories you could’ve create with someone.
Let’s try to be grateful people because the world needs more of us.
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My innocence almost robbed

After a long day of classes,  chasing assignments deadlines.  I decided to go to Base FM to finish one of my assignments, the process took a little bit long than I thought it would with the computer acting up on me but I was able to finish it around 22:30.
As I step out I could feel the cool breeze in the air as I cross the road to look for a taxi to take me home.
I swear that was the longest wait of the entire life. The street so so quiet the only sound was that of dogs playing in the street.
I looked left, right and left again but no sign of a taxi coming.. finally a couple of they come by but none of were going to where I’m staying.
I continue to wait but in the distance I see a group of boys coming my way, holding my water bottle tight in my hands as they are getting closer and closer, a taxi comes by hoping and praying that this will be the one that will say yes but it was just a another no.
My heart beats faster and faster like a ticking clock,  the the group of boys just standing across the road from me talking amongst each other while looking at me.
The cold breeze hits my face, I couldn’t feel my dry lips at all, with wild thoughts running through my mind
*PS not the song of DJ Khalah lol

But back to the story.
For a second I wanted to run back to Base FM but could not move my feet to do the action. They start to walk away from where I was standing. A breath of relief hit my chest,  as I slowly let go of my water bottle, in that moment a taxi come by who was willing to take me home
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Wild Thoughts in the Taxi

So today’s taxi ride was like no other, like it’s the first time I didn’t want to get of the taxi.. Wait I’m lying but back to the story.

Just to get things straight from the start no we didn’t have sex in the taxi because that would just be crazy like really crazy but I won’t mind doing it in a taxi in the future. Nevertheless it felt like I was having sex with this person in the taxi.

Rewind really quickly so I got on to this taxi from work back home, I just jumped in not noticing the person sitting next to me in the taxi. Smile

So this is where it gets juicy, the person was sitting in the middle and out of nowhere just opened their legs, pressing it against mine for me it was nothing weird cause the taxi was not that big and my mind was on some shit I wanted to tell this ass hole at work so I didn’t notice the person till I turned my head towards the person just to look right into the person’s eyes.

Damn!!!! Lips for days just too much sauce on those lips *laugh* I had to control myself but the person was not making it easy at all. When the taxi turned I could feel the person’s strong arms pressing against mine in a soft manner which I liked, I won’t lie.

The person kept looking at me in a very sexual way, like I was a sweet banana ready to be peel. So I also played along and could not stop it.

It’s like we were having sex with our eyes while our clothes were still on our bodies but in my mind I was about to reach the climax with a smile on my face.

And yes all of this took place in my mind on my way home with a hot complete stranger sitting next to me, okay not that hot now *laugh*

 

Joe

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Piece of your lips

Not sure where to start with this now,  I have been playing this scene over and over in my mind when we meet.
Awkwardly I was not sure what to say to you because I was so freaking nervous for some reason but looking into your eyes saw my nerves melting away, the sound of your voice made me realize that it was not a dream and your smile made me realize in that moment that I was a lucky guy for having you in my life.

I guess I’m still struggling to open up to you not because I’m scared of getting hurt but the mere fact that I’m not use to shared my deepest thoughts and feelings just with anyone.

Bae  hearing you say the words “you the only one who gets a part of me” made me feel like I’m ready to shared that part with you.

Sitting silence with you today was heaven on earth to my soul.

Being lost in your arm is my new favourite place, strong as the waves of the ocean, as warm as the sun’s rays on my skin, most importantly I felt safe and weird it felt right, so right. It’s official you are my superhuman.

Every part of my body was crying out for you, a burning fire took over my body and only you can put out this fire you have started.

Not sure if it’s butterflies or fireworks but I’m sure something amazingly happened when our lips met for the first. It was soft, warm and sweet. Your lips were my kapana and mine were your spice. Did not want to don’t let go your lips, with every kiss you took a  brick out of the wall I have built and I was so willing to let you break down my wall brick by brick.

Yes! You are special more than special you are my person.

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What is a relationship

What is a relationship

This question has cross my mind as I’m reflecting on my relationship with people, including family and friends.

Google defines a relationship as a “the way in which two or more people or things are connected, or the state of being connected”.

Relationships are built over a period of time key ingredients for a long lasting strong one is..
-Trust
-honesty
-communication
-forgiveness

Trust being one of the most important factor in building a relationship, because you will be sharing personal information with another person. To be honest I have never put my trust in anyone because people can disappointe you and I have learned this the hard way. One thing is clear tust can’t be rushed, it takes time.

Honesty and trust goes hand in hand, you can have one without the other.  It turns perfect strangers into milk and coffee,  the balance is crucial and needs to be maintained.
I have always been too honest with people putting my heart on the ground,  just for it to be burnt by the sun, thinking people will be the shade for my heart. I guess kindness burns but that should not stop us from believing that there is good in the world and never to punish another person for the mistake of someone else.

Without communication there is no relationship, there is no way in hell you can claim to have a relationship with a person that you hardly talk to.
Not sure if there is a thing called over communicating with someone but I think I do that alot, don’t get me wrong I don’t get annoyed but sometimes I over share especially if I like you. I just feel like if  I don’t talk to a person I like they may forget about me but I always tell you that I need a lot of attention *laugh* I’m that guy of guy. I have learned communicating is a two way thing, you can’t be the only watering the tree of friendship,  just as you came together to plant the seeds. Nothing hurts more than losing a friend, just cause you were the only one trying to keep it alive.

Forgiveness, understanding, patience and compromising are the ideal elements of any healthy, long lasting relationship. Forgiveness is not a easy thing to do in any form of a relationship but when it’s from the heart, it builts the relationship. There are things that are simplying unforgivable also which can end a beautiful relationship that’s why understanding and patience goes a long way.

Never fight for a relationship if you are the only fighting for its wellbeing,  it just stole your happiness.  It’s best to move on because sadly some relationships come with an expiry date.

Almost take the beautiful moments with you. That’s what I do, it serves you no good carrying around hater in your heart because all it does is kill you slowly.

Thank the person for being part of your story and for the role they played.

Smile… Thank you for being part of my journey.