Music by Ariana Grande Thank U, Next & Sam Smith Baby, You Make Me Crazy.
This one of the craziest stories to share with you, not sure how it happened but it did and it was fireworks. The person was on my case for months and mind you that I was all new at this dating/hooking up thing. Let’s just say the person broke down the door, more like the zipper of my pants. It was so intense, you made me want you in every way possible. So how down the line I knew that we will not last but the moment was so hard to escape from.
Thank you for showing how to love without any shame. For being passionate. You cheated and I walked away, I’m grateful I choose myself over you.
The one (My first true love)
You were the one from the first day we met, I just didn’t know it but the universe clearly did. From the moment we start talking on the phone, the longest conversation I had with anyone. It was not only the fantastic sex but the way you loved me. The things we talked about our future plans, the number of kids we were going to have. I loved the fact that you were the first one I would talk to in the morning, my afternoon escape and the last person I would share my thoughts with at night. I knew I had your heart from the way you would look at me with your dark brown chocolate eyes and your cute smile that would light up my day. Our love was pure and real. I experienced how it felt like making love with someone you are in love with. The way you took ownership of my body, thing you did to it to bring pleasure to every part of my body. The way your mouth would travel down my body teasing me, making me want you more and more. Your kisses were my weakness.
I would’ve married you in a heart beat.
Thank you for loving me in your own way and for being my cheerleader. The personal growth you added to my life.
You taught me the importance of education and how no one can take it away from me.
Thank you for all the lies I discovered about you. I respect you for trying to protecting me against it all. I loved you. You were the one.
My cheese cake
You were one of the sweetest seasons in my life, just what I needed at that moment in my life.
Call me stupid for not being good at reading signs or else we would have been together soon. Your soft white skin as the clouds in the sky a company by your sweet pink lips but your eyes were my favourite part as I would get lost in them like I’m in the Namib desert. Your touch would give me goose bumps and the way my name escapes from your lips is something I would never get over. I would tell you to say my name over and over, your accent was the one.
Our deep meaningful conversation were also music to my ears, the way you would make feel like we were in the same town while you were 500 KM away from me. Your kindness is out of this world. You will always have a place in my heart. Thank you.
Thank you for being in my corner and believing in me when I didn’t believe in my abilities.
You came unexpectedly in my life. Our book is filled with beautiful, hurtful memories each chapter has different story to tell.
What was it about you ? I asked myself was your innocent face or your laughter or your take on life, still don’t know the answer to the question but I know it was wonderful. Your silly jokes are missed. The way you would make it your mission to make me laugh when I was feeling down.
No one has hurt me more than you did, you made me feel things about myself that no one should be feeling while in the arms of the one they love.
Your lies killed what I felt for you. I stupidly entrusted my heart to a fool like you.
Thank you for making me realise that we were never meant to be. I promise myself to never put myself through what you did to me. I’m not sure if you were aware of the fact that I knew every you were doing.
I almost hate you for being a crowd.
Thanking you to all 4 of you for being what I needed in my life at that point in time.
I have learned to love myself more than I love the person I’m with. To know when to walk away from a toxic relationship. Pain has been a great teacher but it won’t stop me from falling in love. I’m true grateful for the moments we shared.
But for now I’m choosing myself, loving myself in unexplainable ways and protecting my innocence from people who are not worthy of it.
Thank You, Next