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Who Am I

All these thoughts are running through my mind,  so many questions, I’m scared to be myself or I’m scared of what people will say when I’m myself however I’m not sure when I’m myself.

Guess I have been fooling myself all this time, knowing that there is a part of me that no body knows about including myself.

The process is so hard, people make it seems so easy using the words find yourself, know yourself, it’s so freaking crazy.

There is this part of me that I have been keeping to myself,  because I have always believed that I don’t want to add my problems to people even if it’s my own family. I would rather hear their problems and try to help them.

I wish I knew what it means to be true to yourself or maybe I just scared to be myself around people.  The world is not ready to meet the person I’m  meant to be. For now I’m just going to be Joe.


My Grade 10 Experience

Not so long still remember the day I got my results. It was a Wednesday me and my friends took my mom to the train station cause she was travelling to Karasburg, on our way back we went to check our results at the regional office and I was super nervous. I walked over to my school’s name and check for my name no # it must be a mistake I can’t fail I  looked closer it was just a 22 couldn’t move for a moment till my friends started screaming yes, yes! It’s a pass. They looked at me and said stop playing you pass right?  I told them no they walked over to make sure. The walk home was weiri quiet .

I got home started cleaning the house like nothing is wrong then it hit me when I got a text from my cousin did you pass? Starting breaking down crying uncontrollable I think it was for about a good 30mins of crying because I did study hard but clearly not hard enough. What hurt more was the ” it’s going to be okay” ” it’s not the end of the world” but it was my end of the world.

Come January was not sure what to do first I wanted a remark but then a good friend just told me to go to Namcol. I was so confused but I did go to Namcol and to be honest that was the best year of my life not the easiest by any means.

The next year I was back at school grade 11 even got a B in history lol.

I’m sharing my story with you just to show you that failure doesn’t define you and you shouldn’t allow it to define who you will become in life. Cry if you have to get it out of your system. I know the pain it’s not easy but it gets better and better.

Congratulations to those who passed.

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My Naked Weekend

This was one of those unplanned moments that just fell into place perfect.

Babe’s eagerness to please me was simply beautiful, as we got some ingredients for dinner I could see how nervously babe was happy.

Back home the cooking started with some new rules for the night from Babe ” tonight we are watching movies in a different way and you are not allowed to fight me on this one” babe said,  this got me really nervous to find out what rules are these and babe continues with the rules for the night “We will watch the movies naked completely naked no clothes on” for a moment there I couldn’t believe what babe just said turning to get my head around it because I was never naked in front of another person but I agreed to the rules of the buildings night which lit babe’s face up like a Christmas tree.

Music, the sound of me chopping up the onions, wine being poured in the glass and our lips making the first connection of the night felt like with every kiss I wanted more.

My favourite place in world is babe’s arms, I  refer to it as my Paris, my happy place.

As we sit down on opposite side to watch the first movie while have dinner. Babe ” you are way too far from me” just those words made me realise I was with the right person, in the right moment.

We both still fully dress, till babe jumps up in front of me with a naughty smile started to remove his clothes starting with the t-shirt and ending with the hot pants. I swear I couldn’t focus on the movie anymore with this beautiful wonder of nature standing completely up  naked sharing with me the most intimate part and in the process breaking down the walls I have built one brick at a time.

Coming to sit next to me saying no pressure only do it if you feel comfortable. Thinking myself should I do this or no? And I already knew the answer to the question a clean yes. As I start to undressed myself nervously…smiling but deep down knowing that this is what I want.

Couldn’t believe I was sitting naked, butt naked and loving every moment of it with my person. My eyes were more on babe’s body than the movie. As I travelled babe’s body with my eyes, visiting every amazing part of it not wanting to miss out on a single part till I made my final stop my favourite part of the body, lips. I softly pressed my lips on babe’s lips as I was awaiting permission to enter babe’s mouth, our tongues meet and it was fireworks in our mouths. That kiss felt like a movie strong, powerful yet passionately soft with an element of laughter.

Sitting completely naked in each others hands, being at our most vulnerable, ready to seeing each other scars and loving how imperfect we are.

Weirdly enough that was one of my best sex free experience.

Getting lost in each others body but not filled with lust for it.

That night our bodies united in to one without sex being involved.

Love is a beautiful ride with ups and downs accompanied by amazing twist and turns. Make sure your riding mate is ready and prepared for the journey.

PS love every part of your amazing body. It’s the perfect gift for my eyes.