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We all need that love story to be true

Yes, could 2017 be the year of real true love? A love that is so strong that allows us to be vulnerable and to show a different side. Love only occurs when you allow it to, I know falling is really a scaring feeling but you will not know unless you try. Some scars are worth all the trouble in the end because happiness is a road full of roses with thorns, sometimes you will get hurt but that will teach you to be careful next time. We should always keep in mind that love doesn’t happen overnight, it takes time to grow into what you want it to be.

Love is not measured by how soon you say the word or how fast you take your clothes off for someone or how expensive the gifts you buy are, love is one of those cheap things we all can afford to buy but if it comes with a price tag then it’s not love. This may sound stupid but the true measure of love is not giving up on your partner, always being around without saying a word, being their life saver when they need one and most importantly listening with understanding in order to communicate effectively.

Never forget to love yourself because in most cases we forget to love ourselves while in the process of falling in love, only then can you give yourself fully to the next person.

In most case we all don’t experience that love we want and need but don’t let that stop you from experiencing this wonderful thing called love, there is a rock for you in the sea, it takes time for it to reach the beach, in the meantime play in the sand get your feet wet, feel the cold water between your toes. Live life and don’t wait to fall in love.

We all want to wake up to a beautiful smile next to us, a passionate kiss for breakfast, an ear that never gets tired to hear our voices. Know that you are loved for who you are and not what you have or how you look.

Let’s be brave enough this year to falling love and live the love story you have been dreaming off or reading about it in books, let that movie be yours. Let’s say goodbye to being a booty call or the side piece on the plate.

Let’s be drunk in love for 2017.

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The friendship Golden Rules

They say friends are family you can choose and I couldn’t agree more with this sentiment because it’s very important you are aware of the people and the kind of energy you allow in your life. Now a days you find the words ‘friendship’, ‘best friend’, ‘chomie” being use loosely we should be very careful who we refer to us a friend because not everyone is your friend.  Friendships are like elevators; they are either bringing you up or taking you down.

A friend is someone who has a bond of mutual affection with you, knows you inside out and still loves you for who you are. They chip in when you don’t have enough money to buy something, they are your unpaid therapist who listen to all your problems, cries and laughs with you in good and bad moments. Sometimes it’s really hard to find a person like that, I always thought I’ll be friends for life with all of childhood friends just because we had spent so much time together look at me now I hardly know them and they turned out to be completely different people which is not a bad thing at all.

Choose friends who encourage, strengthens you and shares the same values. The most important element of an adult friendship is having emotional support that doesn’t come with unnecessary criticism, rather be nonjudgmental.

A friend respects your opinions and trust your advice because it comes from a place of honesty. These are my golden rules to a long strong fruitful friendship.

Respects

As one of the building blocks of friendship, It all starts with respecting your friend’s chooses although you may not be happy with it, all you can do sometimes is lay out different options for them and being there to support them. Respect is the frame of the door.

Trust

Trust is the foundation of a long lasting friendship. This is how you build up your friendship and been able to confidential confide in a friend without worry about someone knowing your shit! And no matter what happens always respect the element of trust in your friendship even if you guys stop being friends. Trust is the key that unlocks the door.

Honesty and loyalty

The fundamental building block of any relationship. Honesty and loyalty is one of ingredients for a long lasting friendship. Not being afraid to call you out when you are making a bad choose, sometimes it can seem harsh but they have your best interest at heart. Honesty is the door of the friendship and loyalty is the door handle knowing that they can count on you.

You need to distinguish between friendly and being friends and understand the difference between casual friends and true friends. Knowing this allows you to have boundaries in your friendship.

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The Break UP

Let’s just say we both knew it was over but not brave enough to  acknowledge it or that’s how I felt like.

It’s so crazy almost around about this time last year we were getting together,  you were not sure if you were ready for a relationship and I was scared to get hurt but still we made it work for 11 months which were by far the best. You made loving you so much fun and easy.  The weird moments I have experienced was your stupid dance moves that got me laughing藍 more than I was supposed to, the silly things you would do to make me laugh I swear that was your full-time job to get a smile on my face. I still remember our first kiss in the studio my favourite place, I was a little shy but really wanted to feel your lips against mine, to have some part of you and it was a beautiful nervous moment.

Our moments

That one time we escaped on walk around the Warehouse just for you to get me alone, I remember how our lips met and our tongues took over , a little moan escaped my mouth which made you pull me close while making my mouth your play ground. In that moment it was just us and you took that moment to show me your six-pack (between us not sure if it really was a six or 4 ) I ran my cold hands down your warm six pack with every part of me wanting you.

The pick ups

How can I forget that, the way you would pick me up in your arms just to show how strong you are but I think I love your hugs way more, being in  your arms were my favourite place,  feeling your heart beat against mine and knowing a kiss would follow soon like a beat of a song waiting on the chorus, softly touching my lips while our tongues fight for domination in each others mouth I would always let you win.

Date night ( we made it a thing)

Starts with us fighting over what to do or what movie to watch. I use to look forward to our date nights whether we were going out or not, just the fact that I was going to spend time with you and seeing your silly face that smile of yours would take me away from whatever I was going through. And the way you wanted to make me fat always feeding me but you still need to work on your cooking, as that one time you put too much salt in the food lol that’s what I’m going to miss.

Our awkward fights and I believe you do have a romantic side to you after all the sweet text messages, you had your moments.

The break up

We had the weirdest break I guess that’s what made us different.  Breaking up on our anniversary. I could see it in your eyes when I brought the topic up and how fast you said we should just go our separate ways. To  be honest a part of me wanted to grab you but I could see something has changed.

Thank you for loving me in your own special weird way. I just wanted to share the good memories we had that’s how I want to remember you.

You’ll always have a special place in my heart. I only realised too late that I loved you more than I knew. J I

 

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Keep The Fire Burning

I must say keeping the fire burning is one the most difficult things to do sometimes in a relationship especially if you were dating for a long time,  things just start to get boring which is a normal part of any relationship but you should be able to keep the fire burning it may not be easy but it’s do-able.

I always try to keep things as fun as possible and the best part is that sometimes my partner does the most which catches me off guard. Mind you my partner was not the most romantic person but had moments sometimes.

For me a relationship is just like making a fire, it’s not easy to get it started sometimes cause there is a lot of factors involved like the type of wood, cutting the wood and finally bringing it together to make a fire. The thing with a fire is that you need to put wood on to keep the fire going, just like in a relationship you need to put in effort no off days. Nothing feels as good as being kept warm by the flames of your fire, just like those passionate moments when your bodies are intertwined together.  Sometimes it’s  absolutely fine to let the flames go down to enjoy the warmth of the coals and the heat they provide.

Here are a couple of things I do to keep the fire burning in my relationship and hopefully it can also work for you.

1. Stop taking your partner for granted, always try to celebrate your partner. Always try to send a random text at random times.

 2. Take each other on surprise dates.
Planning “date nights” and let me tell you date night works, it’s still  a thing especially if you want to spend some time alone just to reconnect again and make it as fun as possible. Our date nights are always crazy and I like that. So let’s agree that “date night” is most certainly important.

 3. Dedicate a couple of hours a week without electronics.

I can see people making faces as they are  read this. I have noticed at first how much time we spend on our phones when we are together to the point that when my partner is speaking and I’m not listening to a single word, till I challenged us to spend less time on our phones when we are together. Now we are using that  precious time engaging in a meaningful conversation or just make fun of each other.

 4. Have more sex.

I’m sure you were waiting on this one *laugh* try to make it as random as possible, don’t wait for the bed to do it, nothing feels as good as surprise sex, having your breath knocked out of your body as you searching for more air in the mouth of your partner while holding on as tight as you can to their body. Do in the shower, do it in the car , do in the kitchen, do in a public rest room, you get the idea just do it shamelessly and you welcome to try that move you saw in a porn video. You will thank me later and remember there will be many times when one of you is in the mood to have sex when the other isn’t.

 5. Always kiss or hug your partner hello.

Nothing feels as good as having their body pressed against yours and feeling the warmth of it. Having your lips locked together while your tongues are fighting for domination in each others mouth. Hell, some people probably have sheets and pillowcases with the phrase on it. Yes, it is very important to kiss the one you love.

That’s how I used to keep the fire burning in my relationship and keep in mind its never easy there are days we both busy and can’t do date night but we still find a way to do something together. So this winter make sure you have enough firewood to keep that fire burning.

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My First

First time I’m reflecting on my week for the year 2018 and I must say I really have missed doing this it’s like therapy for me.

Let’s get straight into…

My feelings for you (bae)

 

I must confess I have missed you more then I thought I would, not seeing or feeling your lips have been like torture to me but a part of me is busy giving up on us. Sometimes you just know when to walk away from a situation before it causes more  damage to you. Maybe I’m just over thinking things and this is how relationship go sometimes but a part of me is telling me something else.

 

Work

One of my happy places makes me feel like Olivia Pope way I fixed the shit out of it lol watching scandal payed of after all. We had this Nedbank Kapana cook off on Friday and my team was not ready at all, it was crazy I was panicking but my team was like   “we got this let’s just have fun”. We walked away with the 3rd prize I must admit it was exciting. Also love the way I ended the week on a high note with a great interview I had with Helena who was the drive personality on my show for the week,  her energy gave me live.

My superhero for the week

My Mom, this woman keeps me grounded. When I find myself in a situation I always ask myself what would my mom do. I’m so thankful to have an amazing mother like you. You give me my strength not to give up and to always have  a kind heart.

Lessons learned

To live in the moment.

To be thankful for what I have.

Not to be afraid to try out new things.

Not to trust people completely.

To be careful of people.

 

Achievements

 

Growth and development and implementation.

Learning not to let my emotions control my reponses.

Owning next week, every single day is a blessing and a chance for rebirth.

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A mother’s love

I love the fact that there is a day set aside to celebrate our mothers for everything they have done for us.

Thank you
For always protecting us against the evils of the world like a lioness would guard over her cups but allowing us to make mistakes in order to learn a lesson.
For loving us unconditional through all our faults, there is nothing greater than a mother’s love, understanding and forgiving heart.
The silent prayers they would say without us knowing and the sleepless nights cause of us.

As we celebrate Mother’s day today, let’s make time to spend with our mother’s, no gift is greater for her that spending time with her kids and seeing them happy. Let’s create amazing memories while our mother’s are still health and in good shape. Because there is a child somewhere in the world wishing they had there mother around, to be able to feel their mother’s love or just to see her for one last time, never take your mother for granted cause you never know when you will lost her. Don’t wait for her funeral to celebrate her do it now and not only on mother’s day but every single day of the year.

I always thank God for blessing me with a mother like mine, a strong independent woman with heart as big as the ocean with so much depth. You instilled powerful values in me, my brother and sister, that of always being respectfully, the art of being thankful and sharing the little we have even if it’s the last thing we have and always take our problems to God through prayer and lastly to how to be responsible independent individual.

I will be forever thankful for all the sacrifices you have made for us and still making. The early morning, the late evenings and for always being able to make us happy with the little you had.

Your happiness means the world to me, my time on earth will not be enough to repay everything you have done.

Make sure to treat your mom today in your own special way.

To my Mom and all mother’s we love you and we can’t imagine life with you but the fact that you have made us so strong to be able to handle anything if you are not around.

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Us

I took a couple of pictures with you not knowing I would like you so much. I took your number not knowing if I would be brave enough to send you a text until you liked a couple of my pictures on instagram, I was not aware that you noticed me that night I couldn’t stop myself from liking a couple of your pictures.  And later on find myself in your DM at 2:00 am in the morning we exchanged numbers.

Not sure if I was crushing on you but I was trying to convince myself of reasons why I shouldn’t be liking you at all, firstly you were not my type ​laugh​ yes I have a type as crazy as it may sound I’m old school like that and secondly I was not ready to get all caught up with someone but you found a way to break through it all and to find a place in my heart.

Best part was that we were both scared of getting hurt but at the same time we were ready to give it a chance which was beautiful in a way. The weird part was it was all unplanned but a lovely surprise.

Our late night, our early morning talks were simply the best, the laughter, the funny moments while discovering who we were. Your calls were by far the best hearing your voice, hearing you call me babe for the first time was music to my heart.

I still ask myself why you?
How did it happen?
How did I allowed you to be so close to my heart?
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Broken one Healed

It was rainy Wednesday evening and all I could think about was you and seeing you. Our talk was the only thing I could think about as it got closer with every hour that was passing, it was scary not sure what to expect.

As I make my way to the coffee shop seeing you sitting there waiting for me with a big bright smile and a glass of cold beer. I could see you were more nervous than me but trying to hide it behind that cute smile of yours. As I took my seat the first words to escape from your mouth were “I’m sorry babe” that melted my heart, we both had so much to say sorry for little did I know by the end of the evening you hit me with one big secret that requires a millions sorries.

As always you force the food down my throat, asking me over and over if I’m good? My answer was accompanied with a weak smile and a “I’m okay babe” .

You said you had two things to tell me a confession and a question. The first question was what are my expectation of our relationship? It got me off guard and got me  thinking, my answer was short “I don’t expect a lot from you” my response really hurt you as you set with disbelief on your face but that’s how I felt. Your expectations of our relationship really surprised me, how you want to build on our love.

I swear I was not ready for your confession, something I never expected from you. As the words slid out of your mouth “I cheated on you in January because I was horny” in that moment it felt like someone took a knife and put it in my heart and turned it around going deeper with each turn not sure what to feel, you kept asking me how do I feel I didn’t reponse. I was sitting there thinking that I’m not enough for you and maybe if I had sex with you this would’ve never happened to me, knowing that you gave away a piece of you to someone who wasn’t me with all of this going on in my mind my response to you was I’m hurt that’s it you hurt me in a way that no one else has done before.

The weird part is I have asked you time and time again are you good with the fact that we are not having sex and your answer was yes just for you to go and fuck someone else. If you had only ask me for sex ?

I couldn’t stop crying for days, unable to control my emotions. Thought to myself that I gave my heart to a fool who couldn’t control being horny, the fact that you not only lied to me but you also lied to the person you had sex with.

I look at you differently now.

I did the unbelievable thing by forgiving you and allowing us to start afresh because I believe in us and our love.

As your cold lips met my warm lips I knew I didn’t make a mistake by trying again.

The promise we made to each other that night is what I’m holding on to and the love we have for each other.

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Date Night ❤

Was a little confused, not sure what to expect seeing that we haven’t met for the year so far and we were distant for about a week or so.

As I was waiting for you different thoughts cross my minds, feelings I could not explain I swear it felt like it was our first date.

As always you showed up with that bright smile of yours, hold me in your arms in a tight hug, as I try to fake a confuse smile.
You took out an oreo cookie which is by the way my favourite with a cute innocent smile you said “let’s share my cookie” you had me with that line here there in the middle of traffic.

We made our way into the building, as we enter the elevator you had that naughty smile on your face. You pulled me close into a big hug before crushing your soft lips against mine felt like you were taking me to the roof of the building with that kiss and it reminded me that I was still yours and that you are still mine. We are each others persons.

We take our seats and the movie starts and not long after I see you can’t keep your eyes open falling asleep which is always a sweet thing to see you do. Every time you whisper something to me this warm fuzzy feeling take over my body at the sound of your voice and your warm breath coming down my neck all the way to my back.

“Let’s walk slow as I want to spend more time with you” as those words escape your mouth, I hold on to your hands.

Was most definitely time for the awkward conversation that I was avoiding for most of the night but was not as bad as I thought it would be. Guess we needed that talk.

As we continued to walk light rain drops started to fall softly on us couldn’t help but smile and got even more happy when you said you were ready for us to go home and that we should take another walk around the city.

Our walk took us to an dark alley as we stopped and looked at each other in disbelieve at this moment we are sharing. You picked me up in your strong yet weak arms holding me tight against your chest, putting me down slowly while crushing your lips against mine while playfully saying ” I’m not getting away from you” not knowing that I didn’t want to get away, that your arms were my home, my happy place started letting the kiss take over as I hold on to you for dear life.

I have a problem and you are my solution. I can’t get enough of you. lip biting, breathless moments, it’s more than getting physical, it’s the connection of our minds and the way you put me at ease.
You are a wild wind that brings that calm breeze in my life.

My hands were made for yours in a way not to fit perfectly but still able to be joint together.

The cab ride back home was simply wonderful as you tried to sit as close as you could to me felt like were one in that moment. I swear I was looking at you talking but not hearing anything just seeing your mouth move.

Movie night was more than what I expected it to be.

I have learned nothing stay the same.

My secret love XoX

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Our Story Part 2

Took  me a year to be able to write about you. Hopefully you will enjoy part 2 in the series of “Our story”. My crazy, wild experience with my first crush in the big city.

Meeting you for the first time was one of those nervous moments but you made it so easy with that warmth smile of yours and those breathtaking chocolate brown eyes of yours made me feel at peace.

For some crazy reason I had no words to say, my mouth was more dry than the Fish River in that moment I realise I didn’t need to say anything to break the silence.
Smile.. you cooked for me while trying to know me better, loved the way you worked around my shyness to get me to be comfortable with you.

That was the day I knew I liked you more than I should. Your chest soon became my favourite place and your arms were my new home, where I felt safe. Your lips were my oxygen.

Talking to you was the best part of my day, something I was looking forward to and you never disappointed me with your words.

I remember that day I wasn’t feeling myself and I texted you to come and give me a hug and not long there you were standing with your arms open. Lol I remember you asking me “what’s wrong ? Did my dog die or something” . Your mad face was just the one. Crazy but my punishment for the hug was me cooking for you which I enjoyed doing.

The kiss
Your lips melted into mine for that moment in time I felt like I was on cloud 9. You took your time with every kiss as our tongues met in our mouths dancing as my tongue twisted around yours.
That kiss rise the roof, as you worked my mouth like it was never worked before.

You were mine but I was not yours.

To be continued….

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Who Am I

All these thoughts are running through my mind,  so many questions, I’m scared to be myself or I’m scared of what people will say when I’m myself however I’m not sure when I’m myself.

Guess I have been fooling myself all this time, knowing that there is a part of me that no body knows about including myself.

The process is so hard, people make it seems so easy using the words find yourself, know yourself, it’s so freaking crazy.

There is this part of me that I have been keeping to myself,  because I have always believed that I don’t want to add my problems to people even if it’s my own family. I would rather hear their problems and try to help them.

I wish I knew what it means to be true to yourself or maybe I just scared to be myself around people.  The world is not ready to meet the person I’m  meant to be. For now I’m just going to be Joe.